I catch the tears that fall...

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 02:16:56 GMT

new el jay...

ABChelloXYZ

GAY

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 00:30:51 GMT

I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break

..........

I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you

Why can't you just forgive me
I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way
But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting

..........

you keep me right here waiting...

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 02:59:10 GMT

super depressed.

stupid survey.

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 02:31:36 GMT

(1) Your gender: female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: Straight
(3) Single?: yes
(4) Want to be?: no
(5) Your birth day: aug. 13th

(6) Age you act: depends on the day. sometimes 5. sometimes mid 20s
(7) Age you wish you were: 17 or 18
(8) Your height: 5'7 1/4"
(9) The color of your eyes: all different. they changee wooo
(10) Happy with it?: i said wooo
(11) The color of your hair: longish and brownish with blonde from time to time
(12) Happy with it?: yea im all good
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: right
(14) Your living ? what?
(29) What's your job: lifeguard, swim teacher.
(30) Piercings?: 9 i believe.
(31) Tattoos?: none yey
(32) Obsessions?: myspace cellphone weight.
(35) Do you speak another language?: spanish and becky.
(36) Have a favorite quote?: probably, dont feel like thinking.
(37) Do you have a webpage?: myspace? and xanga?

DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
(38) Do you live in the moment?: ha.
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? most of the time, but sometimes speaking my mind shows up as lack of tolerance.
(40) Do you have any secrets?: mm hm
(41) Do you hate yourself?: uh pretty much
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: sometimes
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: bahaha wow.
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: urhm?
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: wreck.
(46) What's your biggest fear?: getting cancer or losing someone to cancer.
(47) Can you sing: uh i dont think so mannn
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: uh no thanks, half the time im confused about who i am. but i guess im not really a definition.
(49) Are you a loner?: lately
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: not now.
(52) Are you a daredevil?: most times
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: oh please this is like something i write about in my j-nal.
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: mostly aggressive
(55) Have you got a ?: many.
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? strength? nahhh. weakness=icecream or chocolate on a bad day.
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: my happiness level i guess, being able to make people laugh again, and the way i look of course, cause im a girl and thats what girls are spossed to say. jay kay
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: love
(59) How do you vent?: softball and other stuff unlike softball.
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: bahahahahaa i wish
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: no never, cause im perfect and all.
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: i have life, of course its good.
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: believe
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: my collar bones.
(65) And least?: my hips
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: no
(67) Are you confident?: oh, good one.
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: main character from Sloppy Firsts, fer sure. Exactly like her no doubt
(69) Do people know how you feel?: doubtful
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: mos def

DO YOU...
(71) Smoke?: no
(72) Do drugs?: no
(73) Read the newspaper?: sports section mostly.
(74) Pray?: yea, all the time.
(75) Go to church?: i usually have softball on sundays and cant make YG cause of practices.
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: no
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: yesss :D
(78) Take walks in the rain?: i loveee zee rain
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: i usually let them know previously to the convo that i dislike them.
(80) Drive?: yes
(81) Like to drive fast?: yes

HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice? no
(83) Hurt yourself?: yea
(84) Been out of the country?: word -- ENGLAND.
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: yes
(86) Burped?: no wayyyy!!
(87) Been unfaithful?: yes once.
(88) Been in love?: yes
(89) Done drugs?: yea
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: yep
(92) Had a surgery?: uh huh
(93) Ran away from home?: yes
(94) Played strip poker?: yes
(95) Gotten beaten up?: no
(97) Been picked on?: yea but playfully
(98) Been on stage?: yersh
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: yes. once almost exactly like that. and other times similar without the date.
(100) Slept outdoors?: yes
(101) Thought about suicide?: yes
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: fer sure
(103) If yes, what is your record?: try half a month or more.
(104) Gone one day without food?: oh boy yes
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: yea alotish
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex? yea boy
(107) Slept all day? mm hm
(108) Killed someone?: no
(109) Made out with a stranger?: basically.
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: no
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: know*
(112) Kissed the same sex?: yes
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: nah?
(114) Been betrayed?: yes
(115) Had a dream that came true?: alotish
(116) Broken the law?: never.
(117) Met a famous person?: yes
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: no
(146) Stolen anything?: yes
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: both mannn
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: keke yes
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: a few
(150) Considered religious vocation?: yes
(152) Bungee jumped?: not yet
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: yess !!! rawr

CLOTHES and other fashion
(156) Cologne/perfume?: dessert baby
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: popped collaaa [jay kay] and a bathing suit
(159) Wear hats?: not really unless im drunk or just being silly or playing softball and i cant see
(160) Judge other people by their clothing?: not really.
(161) Wear make-up?: yes
(162) Favorite place to shop?: none.
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: birthday suit for sure
(164) Are you trendy?: dont curr
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: no i like sweatpants and jeans and hoodies and comfy stuff

(166) Believe in life on other planets?: not really
(167) Miracles?: yes
(168) Astrology?: i like to have fun with it
(169) Magic?: in a young girls heart?
(170) God?: yes
(171) Satan?: yes
(172) Santa?: like wo
(173) Ghosts?: yea
(174) Luck?: yes
(175) Love at first sight?: possiblyyy
(176) Yin and Yang?: uh?
(177) Witches?: nah man
(178) Easter bunny?: i love candy
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yes
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: hopefully
(181) Do you wish on stars?:yes

LOVE, and all that
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: stressed maybe
(183) Do you remember your first love?: yes.
(184) Still love him/her?: yes
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: no
(186) What do you find romantic?: alota stuff.
(187) Turn-on?: ties
(188) Turn-off?: boogies? oh FEET
(189) Do you base your judgement on looks alone: nope
(200) If someone who had no interest in dating you suddenly expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: indecisive
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: knowing
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: sure
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: yes
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: hells no
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: uh
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: we shall not go there.
(207) What's the last present someone gave you?: GLOW STICKSSSS :D
(208) Are you in love?: yea...
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: cutie
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: ow ow. nah, probably just walk by.

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(211) That haunted you?: what !??!
(212) You wanted to kill?: meeee
(213) That you laughed at?: reese or nicole
(214) That laughed at you?: reese
(215) That turned you on?: blah
(216) You went shopping with?: MATT
(217) That broke your heart?: myself and dave
(218) To disappoint you?: ...
(219) To ask you out?: dave
(220) To make you cry?: truthfully? myself/dave
(221) To brighten up your day?: reese nicole and matt
(222) That you thought about?: david
(223) You saw a movie with?: dave probably, im a movie freak
(224) You talked to on the phone?: david
(225) You talked to through IM?: reese
(226) You saw?: maja
(227) You lost?: BLAHHHH
(229) You thought was completely insane?: me or nicole. but its all good i like it
(230) You wanted to be?: no one.
(231) You told off?: jokingly the softball girliesss <33
(232) You trusted?: nicole p reese matt nicole e
(233) You turned down?: rachel
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(234) Smiled?: a few minutes ago
(235) Laughed?: a few mins ago
(236) Cried?: about an hour ago
(237) Bought something?: today, pineapple from wawa and water and gum
(238) Danced?: tonight while driving?
(239) Were sarcastic? this survey
(240) hugged someone?: my mommy or nick nick this morning.
(241) Talked to an ex?: tonite
(242) Watched your fave movie?: not for a while
(243) Had a nightmare?: last night
(245) Talked on the phone?: about 40 mins ago
(246) Listened to the radio?: about an hour ago
(247) Watched TV?: this morning i watched the news
(248) Went out?: tonite
(249) Helped someone?: today
(250) Were mean?: tonite
(251) Sang?: few mins
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: few weeks
(253) Said "I love you"?: today. no response. :/
(254) Missed someone?: now.
(255) Fought with a family member?: idk
(256) Fought with a friend? yesterday
(257) Had a serious conversation?: now
(258) Got drunk?: a day ago or so
(259) Had sex?: BLAH

read? maybe?

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 02:09:01 GMT

i'm completely exhausted. my energy needs to be focused on something good. i know that if i wait and keep myself under control, good things will come. but that's so much harder than it seems. i guess the people who really do mean well come when you need them. love those girlsss i knew i should have been a lesbo. jay-kay you guys.

my mind is trying to comprehend all of this at once, and its having a really hard time. i can't figure anyone out, myself as well.

prom is coming up, and for some reason EVERYONE was talking about it. it's a shame. all the money i've wasted on it, for nothing. i really did love that dress.

tonite i wanted to go to youth group. ended up getting new cleats for the game tomorrow, my purple ones dont fit and my red ones cut me up. then i went to chinese with my mom. there's so many things i want to tell her, but can't bring myself to do.

i took a shower for about an hour and a half tonite. and i realized i need to do something. alot of somethings, for myself, and the ones i lovee. i don't know if i can put myself through that again though. solving it was worse than actually having the problem. but i need to be less selfish and put myself through that, so the ones i care about don't...okay that sentence was confusing. but whatevaa.

this week is fine. this week is good. i've lost 13 lbs in 3 days. woot ! woot? i dont know. even though i CANT FUCKING TASTE FOOD. My dad keeps packing me PB&J and i HATE it now. enough is enough mannn.

first game tomorrow. i think im going to puke. nah im just guna suck, alot. and be disappointed. but maybe not. practice mellows me out for sure, maybe a game will do the same?

thats all i can translate tonite. from becky to english.

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 04:42:21 GMT

im definetly tired, but can't sleep.

im missing OH. ouch. OH just left, that hurt. i
hope OH doesn't take me cleaning everything up
the wrong way.hope OH stops by tomorrow, i really do.

im not going to school tomorrow. someone hit me up please.
this week is not starting off good. well sorta.

i talk to my best friend more. alot of people are venting
by talking to me, which is cool. its making me relaxed and
less focused on myself, which is awesome.

but i'm worried. worried sick of course.
i'm sad, at least not mad anymore.
i wish i could make a world of difference.

this is theeeee song of the next i dont know how long.

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 22:11:55 GMT

Take it back, take it all back now
The things I gave, like the taste of my kiss on your lips,
I miss that now
I can't try any harder than I do
All the reasons I gave, excuses I made for you
I'm broken in two

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

Don't walk away

Touch me now how I wanna feel
Something so real, please remind me
My love, and take me back
Cuz I'm so in love with what we were
I'm not breathing I'm suffocating without you
Do u feel it too?

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

When I'm in the dark and all alone
Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door,
Its then I know my heart is whole
There's a million reasons why I cry
Hold my covers tight and close my eyes
Cuz I don't wanna be alone

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you, I need you

Cuz I can't fake and I can't hate
But it's my heart
Thats about to break
You're all I need
I'm on my knees
Watch me bleed
Would you listen please
I give in
I breathe out
I want you, theres no doubt
I freak out, I'm left out
Without you, I'm without
I'm crossed out
I'm kicked out
I cry out
I reach out
Don't walk away

you're a big gay. me too.

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 01:27:39 GMT

so week went as follows:

thursday night hawthorne heights with dave <333 it was awesomeness all around.

friday night. first school ball practice.[[cold as balls. 30-some degrees outside and we were effing out there. i think i pulled muscles. what kind of idiot makes you run before stretching in that cold!?!?! only middle township. and then wishart told me he wanted me to throw. that niggasss crazy. mr rosenkrans didnt really want me to at all. but since wish said i should. then i tried to. but my fingers were wo swollen and i couldnt hold the ball.]] afterwards work. then the play [[which was slammin']] then girls night.

saturday practice at the school [[indoors!!]]. left early to go to work. taught some kids to swim and all that jaunt. then went to daves. like i said in my last entry. that was...uh wow.

today went to practice in Deleware. took the ferry with katiewood. left about a half an hour early to try and catch the 4:15 pm ferry home. ended up being full. had to drive around. and it was gay.

i've been basically living off of salsa and chips for the past few days. and im super sick right now. i hardly can talk, being that i hardly have a voice to do so. and it looks like my night is going to spent puking up my guts, stressing over my research paper, planning a suprise party with my half sister, and being a gay. yep, i'd call it a day.

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 03:49:02 GMT

today was confusing as hell. what theee eff man. really, it went up and down and up and down.

i had a bad day again. she said i wouldnt understand

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 20:31:36 GMT

.................. and today just proved that even more correctly.

lets compare scars, ill tell you who is worse.

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 11:43:55 GMT

so, the verdict as of last night :

i suck.

oh, i mean ALOT.

early mornings.

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 11:48:01 GMT

blaaaaaaahhh

uh yea im real tired-ish.

Thursday is Hawthorne Heights with Davey =D yayy
i really can't wait. at. all. I happen to be missing
a banquet for this show. Which is all good.

today i have to work. and then go YG -- Revelations,
which to me, seems all trippy and amazing. I still
have to find a ride to Paul and Meredith's though.

im really stressed about school too. poop. time for the bus.

by chance?

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 23:55:12 GMT

oh on my way home from work. i like just heard the tail end of this announcement. and it said call for a free cd. be caller # 11. i called. and won. i dont know what cd it is. but i have to pikc it up soon. uh but yea i dont know when i have time. today's a good day.

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 23:01:46 GMT

yo i just got home from work. and my mom had this amazing dinna cooked up.

those crazy asians. they come up with the best food ever.
my mom is pretty good at copying it.

ahhh nummm numsss !!

if love is a labor i'll slave till the end. <33456abc

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 19:06:32 GMT

im sick to my stomach. yay. i love this. puke stuck in my stitches. i'm going to try to eat Ramen soup, my fave. i was spossed to go to two baby showers today. neither of which im making today. dave's coming over.

i must say. i am really lucky.

Plans have been changed. Changes make life interesting. I'm really in love with life nowadays.

i am going to see Death Cab with my NumNum, Allie DeCastrooo. This should be funnn <33

its four o clock in the fucking morning

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 09:45:32 GMT

i cant sleep. at all.

BITCHES GET STITCHES

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 04:10:24 GMT

yayyyy im going to see Hawthorne Heights on Thursday,
March 2nd at the HOB -- thanks to DAVE =D ... 12 days

&& Death Cab for Cutie Saturday April 8th - -
thanks to my dad for being willing enough to
take me .... 42 days?¿ <33333456768

surgeryyy and poo.

Fri, 17 Feb 2006 23:18:31 GMT

daves really asleep in my bed. he looks awfully comfortable. like . . . dead. asleep. he's lucky.

i cant sleep at all because im not allowed to lay down because it fucks up the way my blood flows or some shit. and if i lay down ill start gushing blood again?

i have icepacks attached to my face. haa i look real cute. i have bruises all over my arms, near the crease on the other side of my arm of the elbow, from where they kept sticking me with needles. those ass fucks.

i keep choking on stitches cause theyre so long. im not in any pain at all yet from being so doped up. but this whole thing is just fucking annoyingggggggg.

Fri, 17 Feb 2006 21:48:17 GMT

so yea today i got my wisdom teeth taken out. first they couldnt find a vein to pump the drugs into me. so they just kinda kept stabbing at my arms with needles and searching for veins. when they finally found one it kept squirting out blood on the docter ha that was sorta funny. then i was knocked out. woke up an hour later with stitches and such and i couldnt feel a damn thing. my mom said i kept messing with my tounge because i couldnt feel it. i dont remember half of what happened afterwards. dave and my mom told me i had the hiccups and each time i would hiccup i would start giggling.
After that we went home. My mouth bled alot. I still cant feel half of my face. For some reason underneath my one eye its purple, and my lip is swollen. I haven't even taken any of my meds yet cause i cant feel a damn thing. I got like hydrocodine and amoxicillin and some other simple pain killer. I ate lots of pudding and icecream and some soup with Dave. So far today we've watched RedEye, The Perfect Man, and Polar Express. Now Dave is upstairs sleeping in my bed. I just got done my bath. I keep getting yelled at because i like shouldn't be moving i should just be laying down for the next two days. But I cant do that. I hate doing nothing. Yep thats about all. OH WAIT. last night was the show @ SIC Civic Center. I must say ATAT definetly pwned. <3 nowww thats all.

happy valentines day

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 03:00:41 GMT

yea i have the best boyfriend ever.
valentines day was great thanks to
a special someone. <33333333333333
my cute little kids got me valentines
and chocolates - - ahh i love work...
uh sometimes. except maybe not this
thursday. uhmm im baking brownies
right now. what is it with me and
baking shit?

ugh

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 22:29:54 GMT

i am frustrated. help?

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 21:35:16 GMT

okay so my cp was down for a while. but now all of a sudden outta the blue its up and working again, which is cool. i just like left it alone for a few days and kaaaaaa baaaam it works. i dont really feel like explaining whats happened since the last time i was on here, its too much to work out in my mind and type out in words. it would take too much energy to put everything in order in my mind. does that make sense?

hmm i guess if you really wanted to know youd call or if you were a pretty good friend of mine, you'd know the jist at least....or something. tonite is the last night of swim. well actually its just a party. water polo. food. and collection of warm ups ... i really want to keep mine though. im baking a heart-shaped cake for the occasion. being that it is valentines day tomorrow.

speaking of valenines ... my loveday party was cancelled because of snow and my electric had gone out. but thats okay. loveday can be any day, not just sometime around valentines day. therefore, in about 2 weeks it shall be rescheduled. yea but i ended up going sledding with dave at the golf club place near coho. i must be out of shape i guess, cause i hurt from climbing up hills for 2 hours. or maybe my abs just hurt from laughing so much in the past few days. hmmm laughter -- i went home on the bus today, for what feels like the first time in ages, and i laughed almost the whole hour ride home. butttt i do miss busbuddy. [[ when we partyyying ?¿ ]]

today i asked my mom to get me a fruit basket or something for a valentines present instead of the usual chocolate and caramels. what have i become? i ate some icing today out of the jar. it kinda is making me feel sorta sick. i miss junk food a little. but i'd like not to be fat, that'd be nice. oh well, im not even going to go on a rampage.

this week/weekend should be interesting. tuesday is valentines day. wednesday is a half day, im making another cake for Urb's, but i have pitching later on..uuuugggh. thursday is going to rock cause of ATAT. friday im getting my wisdom teeth taken out. ouch. dave says hes going to take care of me, which is cute. but im definetly not excited about this whole wisdom teeth thing.

time to take the cake out of the oven. bye.

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 02:22:21 GMT

i leave for keswick tomorrow !!!

be back sunday. hopefully hanging out with dave :/
went food shopping tonite for keswick & got some
yummy stuff. im making brownies right now actually.
for the tanners. RIP poppop tanner. <33 and for the
trip tomorrow.

back to keswick. i want to go. but i dont. alot of
<3 - to - <3 going to be going on this weekend. xO

sincee ill be gone and wont be able to practice 2moro
or saturday, i cant swim in the meet on Monday. oh well.
uhmm thursday is the CALs, kinda sorta can't wait. and
next saturday is our LASTTTT meet !!! yay. woo&hoo and
boop boop be doo.

sunday, feb 12 - - loveday party @ my house.
wow im getting too far ahead of myself. its
only the 2nd and im thinking more than a week
ahead.

valentines day is soon. daves present came in
the mail today. hehe. its guna suck ha.

yep thats all. bye.

at keswick you're not spossed to have cell phones
or mp3s or whatever. but uhmmm my cell will magically
appear in a bag. and it shall magically be on at night.
uhm im outtt <33

rereading memoirs

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 01:48:41 GMT

its one of those days when i feel like puking up my guts.

survey. edited

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 01:28:37 GMT

I took this survey about a year ago, now im taking it again. apparently alot has changed.

They sing: Rebecca
Nickname(s): Becky, Becca, BeccaBlair, Blair, APH, Monkey, CH, Angel, Witch, Beckers, Betsy, BusBuddy, RebeccaWhore, Anita Bush, WhiteTwin, Boo, Goober, Gooder, BUDDY

Age: 16
first breath: August 13th
Birthplace: CMCH
Height: 5'7 1/4
Favorite body part: none
Least favorite body part: everything
Hair color: brownish
Hair type: straight
Eye color: hazel
Nationality: Ukrainian, Lithuainian, English, Irish
Zodiac: Leo
Grade: Junior [11]
Tattoos: not yet
Piercings: 9

Glasses/contacts: no/no
Hobbies: sports

~*~Favorites~*~
Food: peanut butter and jelly
Animal: none
Drink: water
Sport: swim? or sb?
Season: summer
Day: Saturday
Month: August
Game: CandyLand
T.V.: i dont watch TV just movies

Movie: Virgin Suicides, Now&Then, Thirteen
Music: rock or 80s
Number: 13
Singer: none.
Band: panic!
Song: none.
CD: i dont have one.
Book: The Skin Game and Sloppy Firsts/Second Helpings
Magazine: that one that talks about crazy bat kids and people eating babies...at the check out in Acme
Person: uh?
Candy: lollipops, caramels, chocolates, AHH SOUR PATCH KIDS !!
Restaurant: Olive Garden
Flower: roses and the ones with the seeds you pop
Scent: LoveSpell or CottonCandy by Dessert
Cereal: granola stuff with raisins
Cartoon: TheLittleMermaid
Website: myspace? lj or xanga?

Salad dressing: caesar or basalmic
Fruit: grapes
Radio station: none.
Actor: none.
Actress: Evan Rachel Wood or Rachael McAdams
Holiday: Christmas
Gum: Extra Spearmint...GREEN GUM ! Or those whitening gums
Phrase: holla if you swalla

~*~This or That~*~
Black/White: black
Day/Night: depends. night for parties. day for sun
Sun/Moon: both
Pepsi/Coke: i hate soda
Rock/Rap: Rock
Dog/Cat: indecisive
Book/Magazine: book
Blue/Green: lime green or skyblue
Blink182/Green Day: puke
Movies/T.V.: movies
Ocean/Pool: both are peed in.
Plane/Car: depends on what kind of car
Bus/Train: Train
Chocolate/Vanilla: vanilla
Sing/Dance: Both of course
Wet/Dry: dry? situational
Mcdonalds/Burger King: ahhh gross.
Burger/Hotdog: hot diggity
Pen/Pencil: pencil
Music/Art: both
Football/Basketball: neither?
Inside/Outside: outside
Summer/Winter: summer
Spring/Summer: summer
Flower/Candy: why not both
Democrat/Republican: DEMOdontgiveashitCAN
Kiss/Hug: both silly

~*~Beliefs~*~
God: he's somewhere out there
Heaven: yes
Hell: yes, even god believes in it
Satan: yes
Magic: sometimes
Ghosts: yeah...
Aliens: not so much
Luck: yes
Miracles: yep
Witches: possibly
Karma: yes
Faith: yes
Santa: nope
Easter Bunny: nah
Dreams: yes
Paranormal: yea
Love: yes
Angels: maybe
Reincarnation: not so sure

~*~Your Stand On~*~
War: its there it exists, there will never be any 'peace'
Abortion: i think its a situational decision, if you got raped or something then yea buddy
Government: ....
Religion: half the people that go to church are going for social status and not for their own beliefs, you can not go to church and still have beliefs better than any one person that does go.
Politics: gayyy
Gay marriage: fine by me
Drunk drivers: stupid decision making
Death penalty: once again situational
Prostitution: jump on it...sike. thats dumb.
Alcohol: too much to say.
Drugs: uhhh
Cloning: no
Premarital sex: its all good
Downloading music: big artists, then yes. beginners, no.

President Bush: not the worse president?
Porn: Foreign XXXchange l
Homsexuals: fine by me.
Suicide: ill keep to myself.
Murder: situational, like the stories on lifetime.

~*~Do You~*~
Smoke: no
Drink: yea
Drive: not yet
Sing Well: some songs
Dance: yea
Go to church: once in a while
Pray: ehh..
Cuss: cuss? lol yea
Talk to yourself: yea sometimes
Play an instrument: ha used to play the flute
Want to get married: yeah
Want to have kids: yep
Have a job: yes
Want to go to college: yea
Play a sport: yea
Go to school: uh huh
Exercise: ha yes
Have any special talents: no?
Believe in yourself: uhm no?

~*~Have You Ever~*~
Done drugs: yea
Got arrested: yea
Broken a law: yea
Got into a car accident: yes
Wished on a shooting star: yep
Broke a bone: yea
Stole something: yes
Snuck out of the house: yea
Had a surgery: uh huh
Been in a fist fight: oh gawd yes
Swore at your parents: yea huh
Been to the hospital: yes
Been on a plane: yeahh
Cried in public: yes
Met a celebrity: uh huh
Been on a train: yea
Skipped school: yes
Passed out: yesh
Been to a foreign country: mm hm
Told a secret you swore you never tell: dont think so
Been on T.V.: yea
Felt like you don't belong: emo

~*~Friends~*~
Best friends: nicole p aryn katie b katie h sam d jess l beth s

Funniest: all
Loudest: aryn?
Kindest: jess
Shyest: katie b
Outgoing: all
Annoying: not sure
craziest: nicole p beth s
Blondest: they have their moments
Most talented: depends.
Best Singer: dont know.
Dramatic: we're girls. all.
Trustworthy: nicole katie
Dependable: all
Who have you known the longest: nicole
Who is the best person fo advice: nicole
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends: yes
Who knows the most about you: nicole p katie h
What's an inside joke between you and a friend: XXXchange.
Who do you always fight with: katie?
Who do you miss being close to: all?
Have you ever had a crush on a friend: nah

~*~Family~*~
Who do you live with: dad and mom sometimes brother
What are your siblings names and how old are they: nick 24 jenn 31
Are your parents divorced: nah
Do you have any step parents: nah
Do you have any stepbrothers/sisters: yea jenn
Do you have any pets: a cat, alfalfa
Who is your favorite relative: nick
Who is your least favorite relative: nick
Do you spend a lot of time with your family: so so
Can you talk to your parents: sorta. depends on the day.
What is one thing you would change about your family: that we suck

~*~Love & Relationships~*~
Are you in a relationship: yes
If so with who and for how long: dave almost 8 months
If you're single do you have a crush: --
Do you believe in love at first sight: hm..
What is more important; looks or personality: personality
When do you think the right time to say I love you is: none
Are eyes the passageway to the soul: yea i guess
What is the sweetest thing your partner has done for you: hm
Have you ever been in love: yea
Do you think there is someone for everyone: yea possibly
Do you believe in soulmates: sorta kinda
How long was your longest relationship: 8 months
Have you ever liked somebody only to find that they don't feel the same: yea
Have you ever had your heart broken: it gets the right breaks

~*~What Are~*~
Your fears: ?
Your dreams: too many
Your goals: college and a good job
Your hopes: ...
Your greatest accomplishments: record? haa lameee
Your feelings: about?
You most afraid of: not living my life to what it should be
Your fondest childhood memories: Christmas morning and getting along with everyone for once at least for a few hours and having my brother home and happy...a few years ago...it seems unreal now though